Lauren' Blog

Finals! Joy. :(

Why must teachers put us through this torture? lol I wish my school had exemptions. How fantastic that would be! I wouldn't have to take a single exam! But sadly we do not use that and therefore I must take every single one of my four long exams. Block scheduling totally rocks though. I only have Honors World History, Religion, Spanish, and P.E. this semester. (why we have a final in gym I have no idea. I mean come on...do we really have to take a test on how to hit a volleyball??) World History will be my hardest one.

I'm going to my friend's house today to study and sleepover. Most people would probably laugh and be like "yeah...'studying'" But we will be studying. There's always like that hadful of kids that aren't the losers, but aren't popular and are somewhere in between. That's us. The Sporty, Bookworm, Nerdish, Friendly people. haha We have it all planned out...history first, then spanish, then religion. She has Journalism where I have P.E., so we'll help each other for those two. It will be a full night of studying. My one friend who is already done school was teasing me to no end about how much of a total nerd I was. He should talk! Lol

I have to take two of my exams early due to my surgery. Argh. At least I'll get them out of the way!

Well, off to the books. TTFN!

So here is yet ANOTHER old post that I pushed 'save' instead of 'publish.' Argh! I'll write my newest post first, and then paste the old one underneath. :)

Today was uneventful for once! Yayy! I met with my guidance counselor (who suggested that I create another blog, but that one for writing purposes only...I created the blog, just didn't post anything. lol!), went to all of my classes, left at my usual time before gym, and started on homework right away. My mom went out to a retirement dinner for a teacher at OLGC where she is the school nurse and my dad is out at dinner with the guys he went golfing with earlier. My brother, Colin, was supposed to have a baseball practice, but it got cancelled because of this dreadful weather.

Another surgery is in the horizons for me and my nuisance of a foot. I'll be having it done in Baltimore. This doctor seems very confident in himself and is promising me NO PAIN!! Sounds good to me! Unfortunately, I'm having it on the last day of school and will miss two of my finals. I'm going to have to take them early. The surgery certainly puts a damper on my summer plans though! My "perfect" summer isn't seeming so perfect anymore! lol But it will give me plenty of time to write, watch my softball team in tournaments, and hang out with my family. Maybe I'll even give in to the SAT workbook my mom is pushing me to do. :P lol!

My best friend's dad is pretty sick. It's really upsetting. He is always the one who gets me smiling on the pitching mound. (and off it too!) I keep thinking that my bad year has to start turning around sometime or another.

I am disapointed that the College Softball World Series is over! I really wanted Flordia to win, but Washington's team was absolutely awesome. It was a great series!

Well, that's all for now! Off to dig up some old Spanish tests to start studying for my final....

May 27, 2008 8:54 PM

I just got back from an exhausting day at CHOP. This will be a short post.

Basically my surgery didn't work. My doc is sending me to a surgeon in Baltimore to see if he can straighten me out. UGH! It is just so frustrating! Now I am in sooooo much pain! I hate getting my casts off!

Well, I didn't expect it to be this short, but I am just so tired. I'll write more when I know what is happening with my foot! :)

Wow! It's been a while! Things have just been very hectic to say the least!

My history teacher always reminds us of Murphy's Law and is constantly telling us to cover all bases with not only our work, but also our life. What can go wrong, will go wrong no doubt about it. It's like when you're cramming to finish a big project that you left to the last minute, you're just abotu done, and then the computer crashes and you haven't saved your work yet. It's just a given fact when you're doing things like that, something is bound to go wrong. (I have learned from experiance...it's not fun! lol)

Lately, I think Murphy's Law is totally 100% against me. My surgery went well, until the other day. I started having muscle spasms....and still have them. It figures right when I decide I'm well enough to go to school, I start the unbearable pain. =( I was really looking forward to going back!!! I'll proably end up going to CHOP one day this week. =/ Anyhow, this whole homebound thing is crazy. You would think the people who run it would want kids to get the schooling that they miss, but instead it's like they want to do everything they can to discourage it! It just doesn't make any sense to me! So anyway, they finally decided to let me get it and they can't find a teacher. I won't have a religion teacher since it goes through the township, gym you can't really have a teacher for, Spanish they can't find a teacher, and history, all of the teachers are booked. Ugh! I really want to get the ball rolling and get caught up!

My mom isn't feeling to well today either. Hopefully, she will start feeling more herself soon. :)

Well, that's all for now...I'll be updating this more soon I promise!!!

It's been quite a while since I last updated, but actually this was supposed to be posted a couple of weeks ago! Instead of pushing the post button, I saved it as a draft instead! I'll post what I had written that day here, and then post another entry about more recent events. :)

I had to go to Children's Hospital today because my tendon snapped really out of place yesterday and then I couldn't get it back in. It hurt like crazy! I couldn't walk or anything since it was locked in place. Finally, it went in a little, but I could still see the tendon on top on the bone and it was still locked in that set position. I hate complaining about my foot since it should be the least of my family's worries, but I wasn't going to be able to go to school with my ankle like that. So I told my dad and he called the nurse practitioner who told us to go on the crutches and go in to see the doctor the next day (today) since he was in surgery all day. So I had to stay home from school. I hate missing days of school! Thankfully my first semester classes are over because I don't know what I would have done if I missed Honors Geometry, Honors English, Intro. to Chem, and Creative Writing. Since my classes now are just Honors World History, Religion, Spanish, and Health, making up work isn't horrible, but it still is a lot. And I was going to have to miss school again today, but luckily we had a snow day. I was very happy. :) But we went to CHOP today and the doctor came in to the room (after having us wait for hours!) and told me "I gave you every chance to get that foot better! You already know what I'm going to tell you right?" So we had to go through the whole surgery planning thing and everything before we could finally go home. This time it wasn't as bad though....last time I was so scared! But today I was just thinking there's always someone who has it worse than me. And then I went on my angel, Ivory's, CaringBridge website and I perked up a little and then everything really got put in perspective. I haven't posted anything about Ivory, but she is a wonderful 6 year old little girl whom is such a role model. She has been through a lot. Much more than I can even imagine being put through. Her mother, Julie, is also a wonderful person. She frequently updates Ivory's journal on CaringBridge and emails me. I love hearing from them and I know that from now on whenever I feel down or sorry for myself, I'll be thinking of Ivory, Julie, my mom, and my best friend's dad who is going through a tough time with reoccuring brain tumors and cancer. Instead of moping around, I'll say a prayer for each of them. So softball season is out of the question...but maybe this surgery is for the better or something. ...On second thoughts, scratch that. lol!!!

I can't believe I pushed draft when I wanted to post this! Sorry!

Aghhhh Well the holidays are officially over and school starts back up on Monday. =/ That's also the day my mom starts her first radiation treatment. My dad keeps saying that she's going to be and look extremely sick. Before she had this last feeding tube procedure, she looked absolutely normal besides the little scar on her neck. But now she just.....she looks like she has cancer.

My mom's best friend and my second mother just came over a few minutes ago to flush her feeding tube. You know I used to be like extremely squeamish, but this whole thing with my mom and even
my own surgery has really "toughened" me up. Like where as before I thought I had my whole future planned out, I don't think I do anymore. I mean if you asked me a month or two ago what I wanted to do with the rest of my life, I would have said be a famous author hahahahaha! lol and teacher if the whole gold medal softball pitcher thing didn't work out. Now I dont' know what I would say. I know the hospital is a horrible place, but I actually like going there. Well not when it's for bad things, but like for visits with my mom and all, I like being there. Especially Children's Hospital. I really enjoy it. I think I want to volunteer there. But now I think I want to be a child life specialist or an oncologist or something like that. I really like kids and helping people and the whole idea about being able to help kids realky appeals to me. I guess we'll see.

I'll try to write more later.....ttfn. :)